living with depression: your stories - Kat Amarië
This is the story of Sindre. The video was created based on an email he sent me, and although I rewrote/edited the text, much of this is Sindre\'s writing, so if you want to connect with him, here\'s his instagram: . Thank you for letting me share your s
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@AGL.001: As someone with bipolar who can go into depressive episodes at random moments for literally no reason: who I listened to here, she made my heart move really hard.
@RADIYAH30: Thank you ❤️
@Fps0077: Downloading the audio to all of your videos about depression such as this, makes the greatest dream catcher for sadness when going to sleep.
@sakurange24: So touching, totally relate to this story
@marinaboissiere6705: I don't want for this person to let go because it is the pain, this people who feel so much, that made a reason to why I am still here on earth. To be able to not feel alone, inadequate in this world. If other people feel the same as I am surely we cannot be so many in the wrong. Surely we have a place somewhere in this world.
We have things to do, things to share. I don't want for this beautiful soul to let go. And as long as someone will be willing to share their feelings I think I will be to find the strength to do the same.
Thank you, both of you for this video !
We have things to do, things to share. I don't want for this beautiful soul to let go. And as long as someone will be willing to share their feelings I think I will be to find the strength to do the same.
Thank you, both of you for this video !
@lailakhan9410: wat u said the happiness does not last for long I thought this is happening only with me ...coz it happens very rare and then I fear it won't last and this is happening so often its so short and then I back to place where I hate to be the most.
@lailakhan9410: I wish it ends and feel my self back to life even therapy is not helping so I avoid it......coz at times I am so low I started reiki healing but after the session I feel like disaster happened within me I don't know if il continue it or no
@dxxgx6713: Thanks?
@federicamessina3567: "but I don't believe I can change"
@gelsaurus6870: “ i don’t think i can be happy and even if i could, my mind wouldn’t let it last “
@pluto47yearsago84: Sindre is from Norway right? I am from Norway and my name is Håvard.
@kevinanaks8554: -- Scientist K.E Anaekwe - Depression / Suicidal thoughts can be fought back using MOTION THERAPY. It is seasonal - to fight it - simply spend 3 nights every week sleeping head pointing west, 4 nights head pointing north (well bonded to mother-earth) - especially during the month of March - August.
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@lexaprolesbo: living with depression fucking sucks. I saw it on tv and in movies and in songs and it sounded beautiful. It sounded like something the pained angels of our world dealt with. And then it happened to me, and it not beautiful. It's not graceful. It's staring a filthy room willing it away. Its convincing yourself that you're allowed to live, even though your brain says you arent worth it. It's 12 am baths sobbing, gasping air. Its waking up and feeling nothing. I hate it.
@Bipolarek88: Polish please
@Dopendekhang: Thank you so much. Your story brought so much comfort and solace to me.
@Lookfishlamp: my depression stems from social anxiety i get depressed thinking about future social events I am required to be a part of. It never ends since the expectation there will be some social situation ill be forced to attend is always there. Even when there isn't any... there will be at some point.
@marveldcextinctionwrestler7773: I Was diagnosed with a Depression-Anxiety Disorder last Month, and I've been struggling with it
@GodHelpMe369: MOTHER - SON ENMESHMENT TRAUMA:
Mother and son,
in the early years should learn to "track" each other...
The boy wants to do his thing
whilst occasionally glancing over his shoulder for approval, encouragement and safety.
He wants/needs his care giver (not care - TAKER) to give him a nod
so that he can proceed with confidence and reassurance
that it's safe to do so...
This scenario gets disrupted by the enmeshing mother.
And so, for the boy, turning towards oneself, ones chosen activities, relationships,
occupations, decisions, choices etc. is associated with DANGER and GUILT (and shame).
Indecision, poor decisions, fear, anxiety, lack of confidence,
perfectionism, inhibition, avoidance, hostility:
plague the mother enmeshed man
due to this attachment disruption.
The mother enmeshed man learns that all his relationships go in one direction
and that he has to provide all or most of a relationship's needs,
(and to expect nothing in return).
In fact, RECEIVING anything can even be a problem for the mother enmeshed man.
The mother enmeshed man can't let anything "in":
encouragement, support, a compliment -
as it doesn't feel safe to do so,
and he (unconsciously) suspects an ulterior motive.
If mother is also a narcissist, the enmeshment has another dimension...
Narcissists don't see others as separate from themselves,
but as extensions OF themselves.
When the mother enmeshed son takes his attention off his narcissist mom,
this leads to - sarcasm, criticism, shaming, contempt, humiliation, belittling, emasculation,
subtle emotional blackmail, threats of abandonment, even jeering and mockery.
How could a mother enmeshed not feel deeply confused/ambivalent about relationships?
How could he not be terrified of relationships (with women in particular)?
How can he not know where he stands in relationships
with both women AND men, if his father enabled the enmeshment?
Why would he not hide/isolate to avoid any more interpersonal pain and trauma?
* At the beginning of last year (2023, February 13th),
the man whom I revered as my best friend,
abandoned and betrayed me.
In an instant, just like that, out of the blue...
He discarded and replaced me.
I guess it wasn't real friendship.
I'd like to say it must have been love...
But really, it must have been a trauma bond.
It's been over a year,
and I'm still healing...
REMINDER TO SELF:
Life/LOVE
is just trying so hard, doing its very best
to wake you up, out of the prison cell...
You don’t even know you're in! *
4 universal laws:
1. You exist. (Always have and always will.)
2. The one is the all,
and the all are the one.
(Everything is holographic - containing everything in each part of it.)
3. What you put out is what you get back.
(The energy and frequency you put out determines the reality you experience.)
4. Change is the only constant, and everything changes - except the first three laws!
***************************************************************************************
- Beliefs lead to your emotions which lead to your actions.
- You will always choose what you perceive is closest to pleasure and furthest from pain.
Mother and son,
in the early years should learn to "track" each other...
The boy wants to do his thing
whilst occasionally glancing over his shoulder for approval, encouragement and safety.
He wants/needs his care giver (not care - TAKER) to give him a nod
so that he can proceed with confidence and reassurance
that it's safe to do so...
This scenario gets disrupted by the enmeshing mother.
And so, for the boy, turning towards oneself, ones chosen activities, relationships,
occupations, decisions, choices etc. is associated with DANGER and GUILT (and shame).
Indecision, poor decisions, fear, anxiety, lack of confidence,
perfectionism, inhibition, avoidance, hostility:
plague the mother enmeshed man
due to this attachment disruption.
The mother enmeshed man learns that all his relationships go in one direction
and that he has to provide all or most of a relationship's needs,
(and to expect nothing in return).
In fact, RECEIVING anything can even be a problem for the mother enmeshed man.
The mother enmeshed man can't let anything "in":
encouragement, support, a compliment -
as it doesn't feel safe to do so,
and he (unconsciously) suspects an ulterior motive.
If mother is also a narcissist, the enmeshment has another dimension...
Narcissists don't see others as separate from themselves,
but as extensions OF themselves.
When the mother enmeshed son takes his attention off his narcissist mom,
this leads to - sarcasm, criticism, shaming, contempt, humiliation, belittling, emasculation,
subtle emotional blackmail, threats of abandonment, even jeering and mockery.
How could a mother enmeshed not feel deeply confused/ambivalent about relationships?
How could he not be terrified of relationships (with women in particular)?
How can he not know where he stands in relationships
with both women AND men, if his father enabled the enmeshment?
Why would he not hide/isolate to avoid any more interpersonal pain and trauma?
* At the beginning of last year (2023, February 13th),
the man whom I revered as my best friend,
abandoned and betrayed me.
In an instant, just like that, out of the blue...
He discarded and replaced me.
I guess it wasn't real friendship.
I'd like to say it must have been love...
But really, it must have been a trauma bond.
It's been over a year,
and I'm still healing...
REMINDER TO SELF:
Life/LOVE
is just trying so hard, doing its very best
to wake you up, out of the prison cell...
You don’t even know you're in! *
4 universal laws:
1. You exist. (Always have and always will.)
2. The one is the all,
and the all are the one.
(Everything is holographic - containing everything in each part of it.)
3. What you put out is what you get back.
(The energy and frequency you put out determines the reality you experience.)
4. Change is the only constant, and everything changes - except the first three laws!
***************************************************************************************
- Beliefs lead to your emotions which lead to your actions.
- You will always choose what you perceive is closest to pleasure and furthest from pain.
@Whitetaildnb: This has captured some of my thoughts into form.
Shaubhagya kumar: I can understand your pain ,
Angelina: I love your videos ❤️ Lately I've been struggling with some pretty severe depression and I've felt trapped. Thank you for reaching out and understanding :)
Guilherme Amaral Silva: First! I really like your videos, hi from Portugal ???
s e: Your videos always make me calm and less lonely.
Thank you so much.
Thank you so much.
Ky: ❤️ supporting you
Mustafa Emad: Thankful for your videos and supporting you all the way ❤️
SgtDevRupesh: Kat you should get Patreon.
Alex Owl: Hi! Thank you Sindre for sharing your story and thank you Kat, for making it into such a beautiful piece. Sindre, I've seen your comments and messages in various places and I can tell you are a wondefull person, deserving all the support in the world. I think it's really brave to show your vunerablility to other people and it could potentially motivate them to open up too. Although I can't be a part of your journey, I want you to know that you matter to people. You matter to me, you showed so much kindness to people around you and reading your comments really could make my day a bit better. I wish you all the best <3
Kat Napiorkowska: If you'd like to help me keep the lights on and support my channel, you can donate over here:
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my instagram: napiorkowska xx
I intend to produce more of these personal story videos, hopefully with your support. Thank you. xx
/donations
my instagram: napiorkowska xx
I intend to produce more of these personal story videos, hopefully with your support. Thank you. xx
Film osadzony źródło: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPhJMfFbmws
